-I woke up this morning eager and excited for the day. My mind was racing with all that I wanted and needed to do. I kept thinking about how great I’d feel when I accomplished everything on my list. And how much better I’d feel going into the busy week ahead.
As soon as I got up, a part of me wanted to jump in and get started. But, keeping my promise to God, I resisted and “came anyway.”
That’s when I realized how tense I was REALLY feeling. That what I had thought was excitement and eagerness was actually pressure and fear. Fear about what would happen if I didn’t get all that was on my list done. In my mind, everything on the list is a perfectly orchestrated formula to make sure next week goes the way I want.
That’s when it hit me. Once again, I was trying to MAKE things happen. Not only that, I was trying to make things happen the way I wanted them to happen. I was trying to be in control more than be in the Flow.
It was also about proving. Because, of course, if I don’t get all those things done, then I’m going to look bad. Or something bad will happen. Going deeper, some part of me was still believing that all that makes ME “not enough”.
Any chance you’re resonating with this, my friend?
If so, I’m not surprised. In the Archetype of Scarcity our world has been built upon, what we do and what we have measures our worth. Getting a lot done, making a lot of money, accomplishing things, being successful. Those are the things that make us important, valuable, worthy. That prove we are enough.
Don’t get much done? Have little money or lots of debt? Are not productive, successful or accomplished? Consciously or subconsciously, we think that makes us less than. Less important, valuable, worthy. Somehow not enough.
Which is why it’s so easy to fall into the trap of thinking that we need to MAKE things happen. That making things happen is up to us. That crossing things off our long “to do” lists is what makes things happen. (IN the way we want them to happen.)
I know better. But this morning, that old pattern of scarcity resurfaced.
Which is why I’m glad I kept that long-ago promise to God. Because this morning, I received a special message that I need to remember and practice – especially this weekend.
I’m thinking it might support you too.
So, my friend, here’s it is – straight from my journaled dialogue with God.
Good morning my dear…
I know you have so much to do. Things you think you need to do, should do and want to do.
But one of the most important things for you to do is to rest. Let yourself unwind from the inside-out. When you rest – when you give yourself space INSIDE – then I can work in you and for you so much better. I can work WITH you.
And then all you do will work so much better. And some of it you won’t even have to do.
You are not what you DO Teresa. You are an expression of ME and I don’t have to do anything to be ME.
And look at how much gets done!
It’s quite the concept to wrap our minds around. That we don’t have to MAKE things happen. That we don’t have to be DOING something every moment. That we don’t have to prove our worth.
That sometimes what we most need to “do” is to remember that we are part of something bigger than us. Something more loving, powerful, creative, resourceful, generous, intelligent and infinite than us.
Rather than MAKE things happen, we can cooperate with what God wants to have happen IN us, FOR us, WITH us and THROUGH us.
One of my favorite quotes comes from Psalm 46.
“Be still and know that I am God.”
Knowing that, I can relax. And rest.
So can you, my friend.
And I hope you do.